Today Will Be a Better Day

So, when I wrote about my workout plan for this week on Sunday I spoke a little too soon. I actually ended up skipping three days in a row and today was my first day working out this week. This has been a really tough week for me.

Sunday- We were catching up on our Netflix and I got lazy… nothing fancier than that. I decided to make chili and just hang out with the husband instead of listening to Bob Harper yell at me to “hop!” during those god-forsaken jumping lunges.

Monday- When I got home from another manic Monday, I made a conscious decision to skip my workout and I went straight to the shower. I am not sure what was wrong with me but I just felt out of sorts. After I finished my shower I helped Ebi & Kai onto the bed so they can eat their dinner, yes they eat on the bed. Like their Momma, they are on a doctor-prescribed diet and I have to watch them to make sure they aren’t sneaking each other’s morsels… thinking about it I should probably talk to the vet about much longer they need to be on their food Ebi was down to 7.6 lbs and Kai was 5.1 lbs the last time we took them in back in April… but I digress. Although, the rest of this story is fur-baby related. So, as I was doing my after shower routine I notice that Kai is acting funny and his paw looked stuck in his collar. I looked closer to see that he was not stuck but he had stiffened up and was having a seizure. This was only the second seizure he’s had, his first was in April. When he took him into the vet then they ran tests and found nothing that could have caused it. The vet said that it would be the “wiring” in his brain and to watch him, if it happened again within 2-3 weeks we should take him back in and consider epilepsy medication. We watched and he has been fine up until now. He is doing well and acting like his normal sweet self again but I cannot tell you how scary and heartbreaking it is to see him go through that. We are just watching him now and will have to take him to the vet if it happens again soon.

Tuesday- I had every intention on working out yesterday then I had my appointment with my nutritionist. After what I considered a “great week” last week I had my weigh in and BIA only to discover that I gained 3 lbs- 1 lb of muscle and 2 lbs of fat. Apparently, doubling my workouts last week did not help me in anyway. In fact, I wasn’t taking in enough calories to fuel those workouts and it all worked against me. So, we came home and I moped all night.

I woke up this morning repeating my new mantra “Today will be a better day” over and over in my head. The way I see it everyday can be a better day whether yesterday so extraordinary or just plain sucky. So, I set out to have a great day. By lunch time “Today will be a better day” was replaced with “Why can’t this day end already!” This weight loss journey has been incredibly emotional and intense for me as can be evidenced by what you have been reading in this blog. I am learning so much about myself and the reasoning behind my unhealthy habits and to be quite frank, it is painful. So, I spent my whole lunch hour crying and falling apart while poor Ramses was attempting to enjoy his turkey burger.

Despite how tough this week has been and how emotional I was today I managed to have the best single day on the program that I have had since the first week. I hit all my targets, had all my shakes, I did not exceed my portions , and I worked out! Although, I did decide to save level 2 exercises for next week. I figure that I shouldn’t push it too much considering the struggles I’ve already encountered this week.

So, I guess today was a better day after all.