Starting Over

“A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”  -Lao-tzu

How many times can a person really start over before it just becomes a big joke?  My mountain climbing has become more like mountain staring then getting distracted and forgetting that the mountain is even there.

Since I stopped seeing my nutritionist and my trainer eariler this year I reverted back to many of my old habits, you know, the eating and the sitting.  But I am happy to say that my focus is returning and my intentions are once again good.  No one can do this for me.  The decisions to make the right choices are mine to make.  I know what I need to do now it’s just a matter of doing them.  Less thinking, more doing.  The same goes for my writing and I talked about it a little over at Leaves & Branches.

Looking at myself as a whole I can see that  many of the issues I have all come from the same place and all persist due to the same behavior.  All the things that make me unhappy can be fixed by a change in attitude and by action.  It’s simple really.  Want to be a writer?  Than write.  Want to be healthy?  Then eat better and exercise.  Want to finally be a mother?  Then get healthy.  That’s it.  If my goals in life are that important to me then it doesn’t matter how far off they seem I will get there.  My success is a direct result of my efforts.

I think the reason that I ignore this blog the most is because this is the one that hurts the most to write.  It’s never easy addressing issues that are so deeply rooted.  But I can’t afford therapy so I need to do this somewhere.  But I plan on working out my issues at the some time I’m working out my body.  No more trying to fix one before the other.

I am in a great state of mind to really begin to tackle this again.  Wish me luck!